Madeline's Life Journey ♥


Madeline's
HOME ABOUT LINKIES NEWER OLDER FOLLOW


THE OWNER;
Sweet 23 | UiTM KS | Pisces


You can't change the past, but you can ruin the future by neglecting the present.

Credit;
© 2013 - Skins by Facebook Yasmin. Cute icon from Pixel and other from wana.
Miracle does happen..THANK YOU, GOD & I'M BLESSED!
Friday, February 15, 2019 | 0 Comments
Hye, what's up? It's been a long time I didn't post anything & of course I DESPERATELY want to share my joyful moment for today's date. I'm gonna remember it forever and ever! Without further a due, let's begin the exciting news I want to share. I'm very exciting!!

1155PM, 14 February 2019

5 more minutes countdown for final exams result (September 2018-January 2019).
As usual Valentine's Day without a date/bf. While everyone happily having dinner with their beloved, & here I'm waiting with anxious, can't sit still & stare my hand-phone for longer period because my final results finally come out!!  I received 98 unread messages WhatsApp group from my girls  & I told them what I feel & decided to turn off my Internet connection for awhile. I had a moment with God that I leave my worries, negative thinking & my sins. That moment I'm pretty sure I want a miracle happen to me on 2019 & THANK YOU GOD it is does happen!!!



I jumped out from my bed & crying , rushing walk to my parents room & showed to them my results. They are half sleep & half awake congratulated me. I couldn't help but hugged them tightly, gratitude to them for gave me 200% support in my studies. 

I was so down last semester because my pointer doesn't really help me at all so I couldn't take many subjects. I was so stressed , angry & one time I spoke cruel words towards my friends & course-mates. I'm truly sorry & didn't mean to it. 

There is one subject that really stressful me out & I couldn't believe the subject resulted B in my final exam which is ASM601 (Research Methods). THANK YOU, GOD. THANK YOU, madam. I feel very pressured that I couldn't have proper time to eat, and even doesn't have time to go gym last semester. The hardest time when I had to far apart from my best friends. I knew we have time to spend on weekends but it feels not the same like before. December last year is the very first time NO CHRISTMAS for me & I freaking missed my parents & home so much. I cried so badly & try motivated myself to give my all best because final exam due so soon & I had to stay Kuching.

I didn't receive any gift for Christmas & Valentine's Day but I gave this gift to my parents. THIS IS TRULY BEST GIFT I EVER GAVE TO THEM in my entire degree life. 3.07 CGPA (1A 4B)  is the BEST achievement I did so far. I couldn't help but thank to God & my lecturers for gave me another CHANCE to survive next semester. I'm so proud of myself. *back pat*

This is not my last stop & I promise that will continue to growth more better than last semester. I have less that 9 months to finish my degree & wish me all the best! Congratulations to those my BFF who had finished their degree also others UiTM-ians. This is probably my NEW JOURNEY to continue to success & wish u all the best to the next level. Until next time, bye. 

“Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever. That surrender, even the smallest act of giving up, stays with me. So when I feel like quitting, I ask myself, which would I rather live with?” ― Lance Armstrong



WELCOME BACK!
Friday, September 7, 2018 | 0 Comments
Well, hello there. This is will be my 1st post for this semester as student Part 6. Huhuhuhu. This semester gonna be tough than I can imagine & I struggle so hard at the 1st week. As usual, 1st week, NO ESCAPING CLASSES! Common Part 6 kot, bila lagi nak berubah kalau selalu ponteng kelas. 


Image result for back to college gif

I feel so lonely this semester because many of my friends going to their internship & not same classes. Only code TMC (Mandarin) actually not same classes. I struggle so much to catch up others because next & next week PUBLIC HOLIDAY. Oh my God. It's not that I clearly understand Mandarin but totally forgotten full sentences of it! 😭 I do understand basic but hmmmmm I hate when it comes to group work of 4.💆 Loashi had told that we didnt have much time to study because one week we only having one session of class! And it's every Monday dude. Every Monday which is next & next week gonna be no classes due Public Holiday . I can feel the pressure already & I didnt have any group members yet! I was asking politely to the admin of whatsapp group & even write my name to add me to the group but until now they totally forgotten about me! Oh Lorddddddd....I was about to message loashi but ended up too shy to ask madam. Hmmmmmmm. That's the problem when deal with someone you didn't familiar to . Hey, I didnt make muka sombong okay. I smile brightly & even asking with the most soft voice I ever had . Lols. And walahhh, laoshi gave us 5 pages exercise book to write in Hanzi (Mandarin character) & you know what I didn't start to write at all. 👀 *Just kidding, I will do my homework by tomorrow.😇

Image result for back to college gif

It's like I will cringe as f* with the ONE & only girlfriend that I had through this semester. Haha. Be prepared ,gf .😉 I hope we can make this things work together! 🙏🙏🙏 Yea obviously if u see me around in campus , there's would be her. Hahaha. (Macam belangkas) Noooo now I can imagine how super lonely I will go through next semester. 😩😩😩😩😩😩 Currently I took 5 subjects total & only 2 subjects will have final exam. Fight for 3.00 Madeline!! Chaiyok!! But I dont know why 1st week got me lazy~~ as f! 😓😓 

Image result for dont lazy gif

Also I couldnt understand subject Research (ASM601) ! What the heck! I cant catch up everything what madam said. I need to work 200 times harder than usual. Menyesal biar dahulu, jangan kemudian! U know when U too comfortable in your zone, U will freaking far at behind. What U can do is to minimize activities/hobbies use to make u easily lazy (especially makan - tidur , makan - lepak) I dont know this 1st week I went to mall,shops by myself. Not because I didnt have any friends but I want some peace. Yea maklumlah sebulan tinggal kat Kapit , sana mana ada sushi king, wayang, etc. Melepas gian kononnya HAHA. Ehhhhh 1st week bersuka-suka dulu lepas 2nd week NO MORE HONEYMOON !!


Image result for study hard gif

I think that's all from now. Kuching weather's freaking hot tonight. Bye-bye.✌❤

CGPA?
Friday, August 17, 2018 | 0 Comments


Seperti biasa, login Twitter sebab nak hiburkan hati tengok lawak-lawak terkini. Akan tetapi aku tertarik dgn 1 thread dri seorang pengguna Twitter *seperti gambar di atas* menyuarakan pandangannya terhadap CGPA. 

Tanpa kita sedari, perkara seperti ini lah yg selalu tidak pernah lari dari kehidupan seseorang yg bergelar PELAJAR. Tidak kira di peringkat sekolah mahupun alam universiti.

Bagi pelajar yg memang selalu TOP student ataupun 4.00 flat every semester sesetengah daripadanya tidak semestinya kekal dlm sesuatu lebih-lebih lagi bab menjaga pointer. Apatah lagi dengan harapan tinggi menggunung oleh mak ayah benar-benar membuat seseorang penuntut ilmu dalam keadaan tertekan. 

Lihatlah dari segi aspect kami yg seperti kura-kura menghadam subjek yg kami anggap subjek killer. Bayangkan...tekanan tersebut lagi tinggi daripada mereka. Dalam dilema demi menjaga hati mak ayah, org sekeliling & para pensyarah bukan senang kami yg pointer 2.00 ke bawah menghadapi tekanan tersebut. Bayangkan sekiranya kami tidak mampu mengatur/membaiki diri, apa yg akan terjadi kpda pelajaran kami? Masa hadapan? 

Seperti mana kita tahu Depression semakin tular di masa kini. Perkara yg sebeginilah yg mendorong kpda hal sedemikian. Ya kami tahu pelajaran itu penting. Tapi bukan kah lebih baik org2 berfikiran positif / dipercayai, mampu memberi kata-kata dorongan..seperti yg dinyatakan dlm gambar di atas hanya mampu bersambil lewa apabila mendapat tahu anak mereka mendapat tidak jauh bezanya markah tersebut dri semester sebelum ini..Apa yg kita tahu ttg STRUGGLE dia selama ini. Kita TIDAK AKAN PERNAH TAHU STRUGGLE SESEORANG TERSEBUT. Ini baru sebahagian contoh Top student. Bagaimana pula reaksi org terhadap kami yg 2.00?

Bukan senang menutup mulut org-org yg seperti makcik/pakcik bawang. Apatah lagi mak&ayah. Sedih itu kian memuncak sekiranya apa yg diharapkan tdak kesampaian. Sudahlah sedih gara-gara keputusan tdak memuaskan, tambahan pula dengan kata-kata org sekeliling yg kurang menyenangkan. Sakit hati bukan? Motivasi utk berubah baik utk masa dpn hancur berkecai. Kalau terlambat utk sembuh dpt mbawa padah. 

Nowadays people judge even small matters. Not much differences can change the whole subject/perspectives. 

Aku berharap..agar parents di dlm dunia ini appreciate usaha kami sbgai student. Kami bukannya tidak mahu berjaya, kami berusaha semaksimun yg mungkin serta kami juga ada keinginan utk melihat senyuman dri riak wajah anda atas kejayaan yg kmi perolehi. Janganlah terlalu menghukum kerana cara menghukum org dewasa tdk sma dgn budak-budak. Put yourself in our shoes. Bukan senang kami sampai ke tahap ini. Sorry for not being what you want to. 

A bit motivation words & appreciations would be nice. That's all what we want to hear. I personally want to apologize to my parents for all what I've done. This will probably the longest post that I've type in this blog due my sensitively about CGPA. I presented all students who 2.00 in this world, no matter how hard it is, CHIN UP. Don't stop to learn. Especially learn from mistakes. Still a few semester to go? What are you waiting for, FIGHT FOR IT!💪

Result Exam?
Thursday, August 16, 2018 | 0 Comments
Tepat masa 12pm, check e-mail menanti Salam. Salam? Salam UiTM which means keputusan peperiksaan akhir sesi Mac-Julai 2018. What can I say..THANK YOU GOD. Lulus semua but still need a lot of improvement. Nampak gayanya next target untuk next semester is STUDY HARD. Aku mengakui semester ni a bit luangkan lebih masa untuk fetching service. And even sacrifice last minute masa study. OHMYGOD. And that it's, result nyawa-nyawa ikan. UiTM students know the struggle how hard to make killer subject at least C+ . Kalau dah C- so bye-bye. Adios. Sayonara 👋
Kenapa mesti STUDY HARD, NOT STUDY SMART?
Kenapa? Sebab aku ni MALAS. Ada keinginan nak belajar tapi..........masa dalam kelas fokus & lepas tu take 5 , ilmu-ilmu tersebut lenyap sekelip mata. 😂 Yea..yea...I know..& I regret so much about that. Take things so granted. Common girl, bila nak habis? Bila lagi nak internship? Bila lagi nak graduate ON TIME? Bila lagi? Sekarang ni aku taip post dengan penuh rasa marah dengan diri sebab tidak mengambil serious. You can blame me. It served me right. Tapi dalam marah/kecewa dengan keputusan exam ni, I learned from my mistakes. Aku still keluar, reward myself by grab a bubble tea at Chickenlicious. No need to be so dramatic. Smile, enjoy the life & most importantly learn from what had done. 😊

I admitted little bit jealous tgok result kawan2..and yea..because they are struggling while I'm playing. Oh no...rasa nak start nangis😂 Well I'm stop right here for now. I know I'm strong enough & I will NEVER stop what I've started. Chaiyok Madeline. I know I can do it. That's okay I still have time to make a new start. Congratulations to all UiTM students for passed with flying colors. You're deserved it. 😘

*Oh ya I think I stop doing fetching service for this semester. I need to completely focus on my studies. ITS TIME TO WAKE UP GIRL...🙌

11 PM THOUGHTS
Saturday, July 28, 2018 | 0 Comments
I've be wondering & worrying about what's going on for tomorrow,after tomorrow and another day...Where there's so many things go through in my mind & I couldn't even sleep. Or maybe I should post something here, for make things be easier. 
                              "Will I brave enough, strong, willing to face it?"
I've asking myself of what,how,when,why is going on for today..& I did my very best to cheer up but ended up questioning myself tonight..Why things I suppose to forget a long time ago suddenly came out nowhere..keep making me out of curiosity??But then, I realized..and even proud of myself that I strong enough face the reality. I thanked to all past memories. Thank you so much for that. Without it, I couldn't be done better.

Well I guess it's right & keep it in my mind. .Yeah of course, thinking too much cause bad health 😜 Chin up! 💪

New update...
Friday, July 27, 2018 | 0 Comments
Hello there,

Wow, you had found me here. Congrats for that .😜 Just to let you know, I'm doing fine these days. I'm currently in the middle of semester break. If you were curious enough to know, I'm continue my studies in Bachelor of Office Management, UiTM Kota Samarahan. Student part 5. 

1 year to go...until I finish my studies. I'm thankful & regret at the same time because of it. I had done enough until now and still catch up due my unsatisfied result. But that's okay..😉  Better late rather than not doing nothing. 

How was my day today? It was very hot day eventho still morning. Can you imagine 33∘  weather fuhhh. I told ya, it's veryyyyy hot 😰 . This morning I sent my mom to Boat Terminal. (I hope you have safe journey,mom) She's going to Sibu because big boss told her to go Sibu for shopping clothes for convocation. I'm surfing Internet & waiting my lil brother back from school (Then, I have to pick him up this afternoon:big boss order btw 😫)

That's all from now. I will post about how my college life in the next post. Have a nice day. 😉💕